Tuesday, 15 December 2015

No Womb For Improvement

Seven and a half years ago I started this blog because I was finding it difficult to get pregnant.

Since then I have documented 3 Intrauterine Inseminations (all failed). Five rounds of IVF starting from scratch and three frozen embryo transfers add that to countless months of inability to procreate the natural way. I've miscarried, I've had three babies, I've moved house.

I always wanted three children, the husband wanted two. Having twins means I won that argument. However we are both agreed we've had enough now. I have one last frozen embryo but we won't transfer that one. My breeding days are over.

This blog was started to help me make sense of why I couldn't get pregnant. It was a way of not feeling so alone amongst my fertile friends, it helped keep my fertile friends aware of what was happening with me without having to repeat myself, it enabled me to remember what treatment I'd had and what drugs I'd taken.

Now, however it is no longer relevant. As I no longer want to get pregnant I might still be physically infertile but that is immaterial.

The majority of the people who started reading this blog did so because they were also trying to get pregnant. Many of those now have also managed to have children, I'm sure that many also have not. I don't want to morph this blog into a parenting one, it feels a betrayal of the very reason I set it up - to get some respite from the seemingly easy breeders I knew in real life.

At the moment I am completely content with my lot.

I have three beautiful girls, who I could not love any more that I do. I am healthy. I am happy.

Using one of my Grandpa's favourite phrases; I can't think of anything to complain about.

There is no room for improvement.

So this seems like a good time to say goodbye.

I'm going to leave this blog up in case it is helpful to others starting IVF but I won't update any more.

Some of you have read this blog for years and I really appreciate all the support you have given me. Even if you have never left a comment seeing the number of visits this blog has had encouraged me to keep writing and reassured me that people were interested in what I had to say and, I hope, found it useful and entertaining.

So thank you, and goodbye.

Liz x