Tuesday, 15 December 2015

No Womb For Improvement

Seven and a half years ago I started this blog because I was finding it difficult to get pregnant.

Since then I have documented 3 Intrauterine Inseminations (all failed). Five rounds of IVF starting from scratch and three frozen embryo transfers add that to countless months of inability to procreate the natural way. I've miscarried, I've had three babies, I've moved house.

I always wanted three children, the husband wanted two. Having twins means I won that argument. However we are both agreed we've had enough now. I have one last frozen embryo but we won't transfer that one. My breeding days are over.

This blog was started to help me make sense of why I couldn't get pregnant. It was a way of not feeling so alone amongst my fertile friends, it helped keep my fertile friends aware of what was happening with me without having to repeat myself, it enabled me to remember what treatment I'd had and what drugs I'd taken.

Now, however it is no longer relevant. As I no longer want to get pregnant I might still be physically infertile but that is immaterial.

The majority of the people who started reading this blog did so because they were also trying to get pregnant. Many of those now have also managed to have children, I'm sure that many also have not. I don't want to morph this blog into a parenting one, it feels a betrayal of the very reason I set it up - to get some respite from the seemingly easy breeders I knew in real life.

At the moment I am completely content with my lot.

I have three beautiful girls, who I could not love any more that I do. I am healthy. I am happy.

Using one of my Grandpa's favourite phrases; I can't think of anything to complain about.

There is no room for improvement.

So this seems like a good time to say goodbye.

I'm going to leave this blog up in case it is helpful to others starting IVF but I won't update any more.

Some of you have read this blog for years and I really appreciate all the support you have given me. Even if you have never left a comment seeing the number of visits this blog has had encouraged me to keep writing and reassured me that people were interested in what I had to say and, I hope, found it useful and entertaining.

So thank you, and goodbye.

Liz x




28 comments:

  1. :( Goodbye - I will miss your updates!

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  2. Cheerio! It's been good to have you round the blogosphere.

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  3. Enjoy your beautiful family Liz and thank you for some really entertaining writing along the way!

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  4. Thank you for letting us share your journey (have I really been along for the ride for nearly four years?!). So glad to hear your life is so full, there is no more womb for improvement. :)

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  5. Good bye and good luck! Thank you for sharing your journey with us. Your blog was one of the first one I started following and your humor and honestly helped me a lot.

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  6. I loved your blog and you helped me when I was going through my difficulties.Thanks for sharing and enjoy your beautiful babies.

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  7. Will miss your updates! It's been wonderful to read about your journey and I'm so happy for you and your family!

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  8. As someone who can't claim infertility reading your wonderfully 'funny' take on 'trying to get pregnant' helped me to understand how painful the process, I took for granted, is when a bit of tipsy nooky doesn't result in the little slip up. Had I not been going through the menopause I was ready to offer you my womb, or any other useful, bit if it had helped you achieve motherhood. Thank you for your brilliant writing, now go well and raise those wonderful miraculous daughters.

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  9. Mazel Tov! I started reading your blog seven years ago, when I too couldn't get pregnant. I think we may have done clomid at the same time you were doing IUI? But I can't remember. I was able to get pregnant with the clomid and then go from there to have four pregnancies the old-fashioned way, though just two live births. I too, always wanted three kids. I too, won that argument.

    I read with baited breath with all of your ups and downs and was the most over joyed when you "tricked" us all with the post about Olive's pregnancy. I am the most happy for you. My husband even knows you who are - "that internet blogger who was trying to get pregnant."

    You've been like my imaginary friend. Thanks for sharing. And have a wonderful life.

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  10. Thank You. Your blog has been a part of my life and a source of comfort and much needed humour for so many years. Congratulations on your beautiful family.

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  11. I've been following for 7 years. All of the above....best of everything to you.

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  12. I loved your blog for the last several years, and thank you for the encouragement and congratulations in the likewise. I wish there was a way to follow your motherhood journey as i loved reading your clever and humorous take on fertility or the lack there of. I can only imagine the quips you have on motherhood. Love from the states!

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  13. I've been following your blog for 4 years after stumbling upon it right after trying to conceive for a year and receiving our infertility diagnosis. I've appreciated your frank honesty and humour over the years and reading about your journey very much helped me with mine. Now, as the mother of a one-year old, I've especially enjoyed your toddler anecdotes! I'm so glad that your infertility story has had a happy ending and wish you and your family all the best as the adventure continues :-)

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  14. All the best to you and your lovely family Liz. You have made a very difficult subject easier to bear because of the community your blog helped to establish. I have been reading since 2008, but never commented. Your humour, wit and 'realness' will be missed. Thanks for being there through the very relate-able ups and downs of infertility.

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  15. So sorry that you won't be updating more, as I've loved your wit and humor--it's been a bright light in the valley of IF. If you end up writing or blogging about parenting or anything else, I hope you'll let us know--clearly I won't be the only one to miss your voice.

    All the best to you and your lovely (!!!) family,

    JC

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  16. I will miss your updates but am so happy you feel complete.
    kd

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  17. It's damn shame to see this news but understandable all the same. Besides I doubt you've got time to grab a brew let alone sit and type. I wish you all the best Liz. Merry Christmas to you and your complete brood x

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  18. It's damn shame to see this news but understandable all the same. Besides I doubt you've got time to grab a brew let alone sit and type. I wish you all the best Liz. Merry Christmas to you and your complete brood x

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  19. Did you hear a sigh? Well, that was me. I think I never commented, so shame on me. But I loved to read your blog when I was in the midst of my infertility journey and I still love(d) to read it four years later. Those German lurkers? One of them was me. I wish you all the best, thank you for giving us your thoughts!

    Kerstin

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  20. I understand. It's been nice following your journey and I'm happy you are content. Best wishes in motherhood!I hope to follow in your footsteps one of these days.

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  21. This is my first visit to your post. I must say that your journey is really filled with lot of complications but you never give up. I must appreciate your work. You are the world's strongest woman. Keep your fingers cross!

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  22. I started reading your blog a few months before you became pregnant with Olive. At the time I was 4 years into my own infertility journey and after multiple failed IUI's, and IVF's, I was desperate to find someone who had a similar history and still managed to get pregnant. I was instantly hooked by your writing and was overjoyed when you became pregnant with Olive. I've loved hearing about your parenting exploits and your twin pregnancy, especially as I now have twin girls of my own, courtesy of my 5th IVF (first one with immune treatment). I'm a little sad that I won't hear more of your family's adventures, but I'm extremely grateful for your blog. I was an avid reader even though I rarely commented and it certainly helped me through a very difficult time. I'm sure it will give others in a similar situation hope.

    Enjoy life with your three beautiful daughters! I wish you all the best.

    Sarah

    PS. I love the names Iris and Edith. So glad you didn't completely ditch Edie because of the knicker brand!

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  23. So glad that you are where you are. Underslept, barfed over and - I am guessing - with not a moment of time to dedicate to anything remotely having to do with yourself. And all the wonderful things that go along with it.
    xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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  24. Liz, thank you for publishing such a wonderful blog. I can't remember exactly when I discovered your world but I think it was five ish years ago when, like many others on here, I was at the start of a grizzly but worthwhile treatment journey to be able to have children. You kept me well, made me laugh and sometimes cry, and made me see I was not on my own. So thank you. I understand and respect your reasons for not turning this into a parenting site and I think it's fab you are keeping it up for others to find. I hope you use your writing skills for other blogs in the future and we all get to read you again. Xx

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  25. Ah, it's been lovely to follow you on your journey! You made us laugh and cry and kept us company so well. Be well, Liz and family. Good luck with everything you do.

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  26. Liz, I've been reading your blog for years as my husband and I struggled through failed IUIs and a devastating failed IVF. The first time I ever commented on a blog was when you became pregnant with Olive; this is tne second time. Your sense of humor and candor really helped me get through it. I just came across your last blog post today because I've been so busy with my little boy who finally came to us this summer. Congratulations on your happy family, and thank you.

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  27. Another wonderful update! The shower is lovely and it's clear all involved were filled with joy as they celebrated the pending arrival of Seaweed. What an adorable u/s photo too.

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