Thursday, 7 February 2013

Test day again...

So another early morning sprint to the toilet and a dash back to bed WITHOUT PEEKING AT THE TEST.

The husband and I lay in bed for the prescribed 3 minutes.

We didn't talk this time.

Eventually, with a fair amount of dread, I turned over the test and saw:



Pretty, fucking, unequivocal eh?

The weird thing is that my first emotion was an overwhelming sense of relief. I've made it this far. The injections, drugs, weeks haven't been in vain.

I didn't giggle, like last time, I don't even know if I could describe myself as happy. I just felt like I had exhaled for the first time in months but still see the long, long route ahead. But at least I now know where I am heading.

I nipped in to my clinic for a blood test and they called me at 4pm.

"You are pregnant" Tell me something I don't know. So she did.

"A beta of over 100 means you are pregnant and we normally hope for over 300. Your beta is 3762*!"

That did make me smile.

A lot.

And yes, I did just have one put back so don't start predicting twins.

* At 15 days past a transfer of a 5 day embryo.





98 comments:

  1. Am I first?! I've had obsessive compulsive WfI checking disorder all day!

    Congratuations and wishing you all the very best with the pregnancy. I have everything crossed for you.

    From a long time lurker...
    K

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  2. CONGRATULATIONS!!!!! That's a pretty awesome line and an amazing level! Nice strong little bean in there! Praying for a healthy nine months!

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  3. I am so excited!!!!! Congrats!!! Everything should be healthy and perfect and amazing for you from here on out. :)

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  4. I feel like crying tears of joy! That's a fantastic looking test...and some great numbers!

    Much luck - I hope the next 9 months bring no fears or worries (at least until delivery time, because who can prevent themselves from worrying then?) and little if any vomiting.

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  5. Congratulations! That is a great number!

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  6. I got pregnant with identical twin boys with IVF....just saying!!

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  7. I am thrilled for you!! I am keeping tons of thoughts and prayers for an uneventful spring and summer with a nicely growing bump!! Congratulations!! I have been stalking your page for 2 weeks!

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  8. Congratulations!!! Oh so happy and wishing you a peaceful, happy and healthy 9 months!!!!

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  9. :) yaaaaaay!
    Erika

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  10. This amazing news just made my very horrible day...take a turn for the terrific! I am so so so excited for you (HUGS))

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  11. Oh, I hope that in 9 months you have a happy healthy baby!

    (There's actually a higher-than-normal spontaneous twinning associated with IVF, as you probably know.)

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  12. Congratulations!! That's an awesome beta!!

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  13. Wow! That is one high beta! Very many congratulations. Everything crossed for you.

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  14. I'm smiling a lot too!! Thrilled for you!!

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  15. This totally makes my day! Thanks for the single embryo reminder, because I have to admit, my mind was already thinking twins :)I am so very happy for you and wishing you nothing but the best in the coming days, weeks and months!

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  16. Great numbers! Congrats!! That egg might have split. :-)

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  17. Oh, my dear girl. So many hugs. SO MANY HUGS.

    *Snoopy Dance*

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  18. OMG Woman!!!! Congratulations!!! My beta at 15dp5dt was 1594 and now I am holding my little man in my arms. Keeping you in my prayers.

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  19. Oh oh oh! What fantastic news! Keeping everything well and truly crossed for you.

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  20. AWESOME!!! My beta was similar during that same timeframe...and it's just a singleton. So so so excited for you!

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  21. great - fantastic news! Hang in there and fingers crossed.

    Ps http://www.betabase.info/showBasicChart.php?type=Single would say you are above median for a singleton. But we all know numbers can lie.

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  22. Identical TWINS!!!

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  23. OH! I'm crying with joy over here...That is the most beautiful Pee stick I have ever seen...absolutely perfect, and with a beta like that, I'd say damn right you're pregnant! Wonderful fabulous news and hoping things continue is such a positive manner....
    HUGS! and all that other stupid gushy stuff...SO EXCITED for you!

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  24. I am so thrilled for you. That is sooooo very awesome!!!!! Yay Yay Yay!!!!!! And...a beautiful looking HPT I must say! How are you feeling? With HCG like that I would think you would have some symptoms.

    Kd

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  25. Now THIS made me smile. I've got IF and RPL so I know the not being excited bit but I really have everything crossed that everything works out for you.

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  26. Happy, so so incredible happy for both of you!

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  27. Oh wow! I have been following you for ages and I was hoping so hard for you guys this time :) Congratulations and hope all goes well.

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  28. YAY!!!!!! So happy you've made it this far!!! Stellar beta girl!!! Woot woot!!!! Tons of sticky glue!!!

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  29. yay yippeee, was refreshing this page all day. Happy for you!

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  30. Smiling from this side of the pond. Very, very happy for you. Feeling a bit like there just might be justice in the world.

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  31. Congratulations! That test is beautiful and that beta is awesome! Sending wonderful vibes your way!

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  32. So very, very happy for you and your one, excellent, motivated blastocyst. Here's hoping for a very boring, uneventful overcoming of all the hurdles next up!

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  33. congratulations. I'm so pleased for you

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  35. WOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOO! So happy for you! Congrats!

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  36. Yipeee! So incredibly thrilled for you, have been checking in every day and holding thumbs and toes for you.

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  37. Lovely, lovely, lovely news. Do hope all continues well from here xxx

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  38. Oh my goodness COME ON!!!! Excited I've been in a long time.

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  39. Delighted for you :) hoping for a lovely normal uneventful pregnancy :)

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  40. woo hoo!!! excitement! hoping you've got one strong little sticker in there. come on baba!!

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  41. Oh lady, I'm so thrilled for you! I know it's only the first step on a long road, but what a brilliant one. Hope you get to enjoy the next two weeks or so (?) until the first scan.

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  42. I was afraid ... but then so releived to see the two lines!!! Best of luck - really hope this is the one...

    Louise

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  43. *Wiggle wiggle wiggle, shimmy shimmy dip, spin bop spin bop, jump jump jump* That was me doing my happy dance. I am over the flipping MOOOOON!!! Congratu-bloody-lations!!!! Goodness I will be crossing my every digit and limb for you my lovely. I am super stoked.

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  44. Congratulations!!

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  45. Oh my god
    Oh my god
    Oh my god

    :)

    Moira

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  46. Wow!!! Yay! Lots of smiles and cheers here! Good luck going forward!

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  47. woo hoooooo!! Absolutely brilliant news! Praying your little one gets stronger every day! (another longtime lurker!)

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  48. Im Soooo pleased for you! I actually cried. Im a sad sack I know. Fingers crossed for the next 8 months

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  49. Brilliant news! And what everyone else said. :-) From another lurker.

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  50. I am so happy for this. This is the very hard first step, and I pray for very normal and definitive good news day-to-day. That is a seriously kick ass beta. Serious.

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  51. Sandy in Florida8 February 2013 at 12:22

    Awwww, you brought a sweet smile to my face today. :)

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  52. Been lurking on your blog a long time... this made my day. Congrats!

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  53. Yes! Huge congratulations and I truly hope this is it for you guys :)

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  54. Praying for you! xoxo
    -a long time lurker :)

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  55. Wonderful news-- praying hard for more good days ahead!

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  56. Wholly fuck! That's the BEST news! I am keeping everything crossed for you in the coming weeks! Please please please let this be the one!

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  57. I seriously cried when I saw this. Happy for you doesn't even begin to describe it. God Bless you guys :)

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  58. Oh so friggin happy for you, sweet relief, now just stay and grow little one!

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  59. Exactly the post I needed to see today. So over the moon happy for you. Congrats.

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  60. Congratulations!! Praying for an uneventful and healthy pregnancy for you.

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  61. Yes yes yes yes YES ... Without a dream, how can a dream come true. Thank god for dreams & consultants that dream too xxxxx Congratulations honey

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  62. hooray!!! h - g's friend in Bxl.

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  63. I know you have a long road ahead of you and it's not easy to enjoy the journey, but do make sure you relish the and celebrate the milestones along the way. I really (REALLY) hope this is "your" time, god knows you've earned and deserve it.

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  64. Fucking YAY!!! Parson my French.
    Congratulations! I hope, hope, hope this is just the beginning and the next eight months are textbook perfect and this is the baby you'll hold and take home. Or babies. Do twins run in your family? * eye roll* :-D

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  65. WOW! Lovely for you and a ray of light in my bleak week...I would have been EC'ing if my cycle hadn't been cancelled... you give me hope! xx

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  66. Another long-time lurker adding to the pile of congratulations--this is wonderful news, and that's one awesome beta! And while I shan't predict twins, I can't help but remind you that the spontaneous twin rate for blast transfers is higher than that of Day 3 transfers....

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  67. Congratulations!!! What a nice dark line and even nicer number! So happy for you!

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  68. I keep clicking back to your blog :) Boy that sure is two Really Strong straight lines - I know you'll worry, but truly try and enjoy this moment. Congrats....

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  69. I have been stalking your blog, and when I got to the photo I got goosebumps, and then I proceeded to bawl, like a child, at my desk. Been reading for years, and praying this is the ONE and that all goes smoothly!!!

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  70. I found your blog by accident when I googled progynova... God your attitude, dry sense of humour and outlook on your situation is so refreshing to read. I just cried when I saw your photo and actually stopped before scrolling down, willing it to be positive. Sending love and lots of hope for the months ahead... x

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  71. I am so excited for you I almost cried! I got a BFP yesterday too! Good luck to you, hopefully your little stickie/stickies keep on sticking!

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  72. Thrilled for you. Hoping for sticky sticky happiness and shall be holding my breath hoping for your joy!

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  73. 2ns time I'm using this term today and I don't normally curse-

    Hell Yeah!!

    I hope that beta means there is a very happy and healthy baby in there. I'm pulling for you so hard!!

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  74. Oh honey I am beyond happy for you, just thrilled. I swear the only way I could be happier is if I was knocked up myself, I am over the moon for you. I know there's a ways to go yet but that beta is lovely and strong, looking forward to your next milestone (repeat beta or scan?) and every single one after that.

    As for the twin thing... There are slightly higher chances of identical twins with IVF. Don't rule it out ;)

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  75. Well, if that isn't a most beautiful second pink line, with an awesome beta to boot. I'm absolutely thrilled for you!

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  76. That is a solid pink line and an AWESOME number. As you are feeling, this is just the first step but I'm so hopeful for you it hurts.

    First step accomplished! Grow baby grow!!!!!!!

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  77. You just made ME smile. Go womb, go!!!

    Kerstin

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  78. OMIGOD! OMIGOD! OMIGOD!!!!!! That is so awesome!!!! I'm absolutely thrilled for you! And, I'm sure several people have already mentioned, it's very possible for your one little embryo to split - so you could certainly be looking at twins even if you only transferred one. Woo Hoo! Stick, little baby, stick!

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  79. CONGRATULATIONS!!! I am soooo happy for you, you deserve this. Fingers, toes and everything else crossed that this is IT for you!

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  80. Is it weird that I cried when I read this post...then went to the bathroom and had a good ball. Anyway, I'm really happy for you and I hope things go smoothly and before you know it you are really only worrying about pushing that fat baby out. This time last year I had some pretty insane Beta levels and thought(to be honest, feared)that our little one had split and there were twins. After AH I thought we'd pushed our luck. Thankfully, it was one strong boy. I hope the same for you- the strong and sticky and holding on for dear life kind of baby.

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  81. Totally awesome! Yippee yippee yippee!! Hooray!!! Yay hooo!! Shouting out for joy for you! Felicitations!!

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  82. Oh wow! How fantastic! Wonderful news! Thrilled for you, Liz. :-D

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  83. Congrats! I am so happy for you!

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  84. Wonderful, wonderful news! wishing you an easy and smooth pregnancy!

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  85. Congratulations I am soo delighted for you! What a clear 2nd line too - dig deep little bean and snuggle in warmly for the nxt 8 mo xxx

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  86. Can you tell - your followers... are excited! Congrats! Praying for a successful take home baby!

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  87. I have been absent from the blogs for a while, so am late to this, but CONGRATULATIONS! What wonderful, wonderful news. May the rest of your pregnancy be spectacularly, utterly, boringly, healthily unremarkable.

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