Tuesday, 15 May 2012

It is over

There was no heartbeat at the scan today.

I've stopped the drugs.

I'll miscarry naturally at some point in the next week or so - unless I decide to go for a curettage and get it done medically.

It is a frying pan or fire sort of choice.

This feels like a nightmare, but it is very real.



107 comments:

  1. No! I'm so sorry. I know just how awful and hard this is. So many hugs. Take care of yourself.

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  2. I'm so very sorry for your loss.

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  3. So very very sorry for your loss. Wish there was something I could say to make you feel better but I know there isn't. Thinking of you at this very sad time and please know that there are so many people around the world who want the very best for you.

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  4. oh no! I am so, so sorry to read this, and so sorry for your loss.

    Mo

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  5. Oh no no no. I am so very sorry.

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  6. Oh god, there is nothing ok with this. I am so incredibly sorry.

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  7. I am gutted for you on this. Really, incredibly unfair. I know that there are no words possible here. My thoughts and prayers are with you and Mr. Womb as you sort through this time. I am really, really sorry.

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  8. Ach for fuck's sake.

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  9. Oh Liz I'm so sorry to hear that. Thinking of you at this horrible time x (granines sister x)

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  10. I am so very sorry, there are no words at this time. My thoughts are with you both.

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  11. I'm so so sorry to read this post. I just can't believe it, life is so unfair. Thinking of you x

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  12. I'm so sorry to read this. Thinking of you my friend.

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  13. I'm so sorry to hear you news... my heart goes out to you and thinking of you at this difficult time xoxo

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  14. I haven't ever commented here but wanted to say I've been following along and am so very sorry for your loss. I've been through 4 successive miscarriages and it's truly an awful experience, especially after all you've been through.

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  15. Oh no. Oh I am so sorry. I am so, so sorry. This is one of the nastiest clubs in the world and I so did not want you in it. I am lighting the candle for you, and I am thinking of you, and I am so, so horribly sorry and sad. Internet hugs are stupid, but I offer them anyway, and all my love, and an overful heart, and I am thinking of you and your husband. Oh, my dear, dear girl. Holding your hand.

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  16. I'm sobbing for you. I hate this. No words are right. IT'S NOT FAIR.

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  17. Words fail me. This is so incredibly unfair. Thinking of you both xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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  18. That's shite. I'm so so sorry to read this, you deserved a happier ending. I'll be thinking of you and the Scot.

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  19. I am so deeply sorry for you.

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  20. Oh Liz, no. How heartbreaking. I am so so sorry. (((HUGS))) and prayers being sent your way. =(

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  21. Sandy in Florida15 May 2012 at 22:39

    I am so, so sorry for what you're going thru right now. My thoughts & prayers are with you and your husband.

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  22. Oh no, I am so sorry for your loss. This just F'ing Sucks ! (and that really does not encompass everything, but it's what popped in my head first).

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  23. Oh no. I am really very very sorry. This is so horribly unfair.

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  24. I know that nothing can help, but I am so very sorry for your loss.

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  25. I am so so sorry. I wish I had words to help you right now. Light and love to you.

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  26. Sending love and hugs - hug each other tightly, I am so very sorry for you both

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  27. This sucks. Take care of yourself. A huge hug is coming your way. My thoughts are with you.

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  28. shit. I'm really sorry - doubt it even helps to know that but still I feel compelled to type. my thoughts are with you both. Zowie x

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  29. There are no words....thinking of you and praying for you....

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  30. Just so desperately sad and sorry for your loss. It's the most dreadful thing. Sending love.

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  31. Oh no, Liz. I'm so very very sorry to read this.

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  32. I'm so sorry, Liz. I wish I could say something that would help. I'll be thinking of you, your husband, and your babies.

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  33. I am so so sorry that you are going through this. Huge hugs and you are in my thoughts xx

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  34. I'm so sorry to hear this! Praying for you to heal your mind, body and heart!

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  35. My heart is hurting for you. I am deeply, deeply sorry for your loss.

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  36. oh no. i just can't believe this. absolutely devastating. i am so sorry. there are no words.

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  37. Oh I am so sorry. That is devastating news. Keeping in you in my heart and in my thoughts.

    Abiding with you.

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  38. Oh no, so very very sorry. It just sucks. The double dip is just crap. virtual hugs.

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  39. Oh NO. Not that sweet little embryo. I can't believe this horror is being visited upon you when you've waited so so long for this and been through so much. I am so very sorry about this heartbreak.

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  40. I'm so so sorry. I'll be thinking of you.

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  41. Oh, Liz, my heart aches in a deep place for you. I am so genuinely sorry, friend. Holding you in my thoughts...

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  42. I am so,so sorry. I wish that made a difference, but I know that your heart is broken and that they are just words from a stranger. Even so, please know that I am thinking of you x

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  43. No one should have to go through this. I am heartbroken with you and sending many prayers your way.

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  44. What a terrible, terrible thing to have to go through. I am just devastated for you.

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  45. I am so, so, so, so, sorry. :(

    -A

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  46. So very very sorry, time is a healer but you will never forget the precious time you had together albeit a short one. It's does get easier to cope with but very hard to move on from, take each day as it comes. xxx

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  47. I'm so fuckin sorry.
    xx
    Erika

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  48. Devistating news, I'm so, so sorry. No words can make you feel better. Thinking of you x

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  49. I am so very sorry. Empty words I know for such a heartbreaking situation. Thinking of you...

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  50. My heart broke reading this post. I am so so sorry! I wish I had something better to say, though I know there are no words of comfort for this situation. I am thinking of you.

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  51. There are no words. I am so sorry for your loss.

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  52. I am so sorry...

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  53. Oh no... my heart breaks for you. Sending healing vibes and what comfort you can find at such a horrific time. Hugs.

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  54. No no no no. I'm so incredibly sorry.

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  55. I am soo very sorry for your loss. The title alone brought tears to my eyes and sorrow to my heart.

    Sending thoughts and love to you and yours.

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  56. so incredibly sorry for you. was so very sad to read this. hoping you are being held tight. so very sorry

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  57. There aren't any words to make you feel better. I hate this has happened to you. I'm really sorry. :(

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  58. I am so sorry. My heart is breaking for you.

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  59. Oh fuck. I'm sorry for language but I really am so sorry and pissed off for you. Had been thinking of you and how happy I was for you.
    Sorry you are going through this

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  60. I can't believe this has happened to you - I'm so, so sorry. Hugs to you and himself.

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  61. Ah fuck no... I'm so sorry x

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  62. I'm so angry for you this has to happen. It blows my mind so many have to go through the double whammy of IF and Loss as if one of them wouldn't be enough! It's so unfair, hope you have good people around you during this difficult time. Thinking of you.

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  63. Oh Liz. Not much can be said that will make it all better right now but I'm thinking of you both.

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  64. I can't believe this has happened to you after all you have been through. It just seems so unfair and there is nothing that anyone can say to make things better in any way. To have that glimmer of hope and then have it taken away so quickly seems utterly cruel.

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  65. So so sorry to read this.

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  66. I'm so sorry for your loss.

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  67. Oh, fuck, fuck, fuck! No!! I can't believe this, dear... I am heartbroken for you. And so, so sorry. I really have no words, except profanity. So sorry...

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  68. Oh no, Liz, I am so so sorry. I can't believe it.

    I'll be thinking of you two.

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  69. Life can be so friggin unfair! Thinking of you and so sorry for your loss.

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  70. FUCK. So incredibly sorry Liz x

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  71. Oh Liz, there really aren't words... I'm so very sorry, heartbroken for you both. Thinking of you xx

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  72. i can't find the words but can not leave without telling you how sorry i am. truly. my heart is breaking for you. xXx

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  73. I just dont know where to begin in writing a comment but had to say something. Thinking and praying for you x x x

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  74. Oh, sweetheart. I'm so, so, so sorry. There is no punch in the gut quite like this one. What can I say? Like May said, we didn't want you in this club at all. I'm so very sad for you both, and I wish this just wasn't happening.

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  75. I'm so sorry to hear this, Liz. Thinking of you.

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  76. My heart is literally breaking for you right now. Please sweet Liz... don't give up hope. You will survive this and you will go on and have the family that you so justly deserve. You and your hubs are in my prayers.

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  77. My heart is literally breaking for you right now. Please sweet Liz... don't give up hope. You will survive this and you will go on and have the family that you so justly deserve. You and your hubs are in my prayers.

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  78. Oh no, I cannot believe it. My heart aches for you right now. You are in my thoughts...

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  79. I am so, so sorry Liz. You are in my thoughts.

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  80. I am so very sorry, Liz. There's nothing any of us can say, other than I/we are all so sorry.

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  81. f------. am so, so, so sorry to see this. Please let yourself scream, shout, cry, and lean on someone's shoulder.

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  82. I am so so sorry. I wish there was something I could do. It's just beyond horrible. I'm so sorry.

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  83. This is just awful. I can't imagine going through this after seeing a healthy heartbeat. It's just heartbreaking. I'm so sorry.

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  84. Oh shit....I'm so very very sorry I was so pulling for you. I wish I could give you a hug.

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  85. I am so, so sorry. I have been there and I know nothing helps. I can say that with time it gets easier, but it never gets better. It is a certain kind of awful to go through this. I am thinking of you and your husband.

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  86. Read your post and shouted 'Oh fuck, NO!' at the screen, then had to come out of long-term lurkerdom to say I'm so totally gutted for you. Thinking of you loads, from a fellow IF Londoner X

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  87. Oh no - I am so sorry to hear this. It's just not fair.

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  88. I feel so, so sad reading this. Sending my love xxx

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  89. I haven't commented before, but I've been following your story for a while and enjoying your writing. I want to wish you strength as you go through this ... I so wish you didn't have to. Catherine xx

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  90. I am so sorry I have not been keeping up and did not see this sooner. There are no words really to say at this point but if you need someone who has BTDT then I am here.

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  91. I'm so incredibly heartbroken for you. I lost my first baby the same way at 7 weeks. There are no words. :-( Thinking of you.

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  92. i am so sorry, heart felt sorry for you. BIG hug and a huge pillow. XXXX

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  93. No, No, No is all I have to say. I know exactly how it feels to see a heartbeat and then be told there isn't one any more. I am so beyond sorry.

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