Today was the official, hospital sanctioned test day. 16 days after transfer. The equivalent of 21 days after ovulation.
Of course there wasn't a fairytale ending. It was as untroubled by HCG as all the others. Negative.
I rang the hospital, the response was sympathetic but equated to: "You've had all the treatment the NHS will provide, you can have the next available appointment with the Doctor for a debrief but he isn't available now until August or September, alternative you could see him privately..."
For those of you who don't know my full background (and why the hell should you?), it isn't quite that simple. The NHS have been treating me for two conditions:
1) Infertility. It isn't life threatening. My treatment stops here. Which I think is fair enough, I am incredibly lucky to have had the amount of treatment I have had on the NHS - three IUIs and 2 IVFs is not to be sniffed at.
2) Endometrial Hyperplasia. This is a bit more tricky. This is when the womb lining grows thick and inhospitable and (in my case) was diseased with precancerous cells. The normal treatment for this condition is a hysterectomy, for blatantly obvious reasons I’m not so keen on this route.
I can't risk the hyperplasia growing back. Even if I decided to give up trying to conceive altogether I can't become drug free, as the moment I stop birth control the lining starts to grow back and there is a real risk of cancer.
So the Doctor has written out a prescription for birth control to start as soon as the post-IVF bleeding begins (it has been held off by all the progesterone I've taken to date). Not for me then the story of: "We had IVF, it didn't work, and then as soon as we gave up I got pregnant naturally."
I don’t want to wait 2 or 3 months, whilst taking the pill, for an appointment that will essentially say. “Sorry it didn’t work, do you want to pay £7,000 for IVF at my private practice?” Therefore I am paying to see the same Doctor during his non-NHS hours, and remarkably it just so happens that he has an available appointment on Monday. Who knew that cash could be so effective at opening doors?
Oh, Ok. Everyone.
So this weekend I shall mostly be compiling a shit-load of questions. Working out what tests I’ve had, and which I haven’t - because either they are too expensive for the NHS or considered a load of rubbish by my practitioners. I am not sure when we will start treatment again but in the meantime I am more than happy to give up some vials of blood for testing and I am sure that the husband will jump at the chance of another medically-sanctioned wank.
Hopefully this will give us a few more answers whilst we work out what we do next and when we’ll have the energy and emotional stamina for another ride on the IVF rollercoster.