... exactly that.
Once again I am in a special kind of limbo that only the NHS seem capable of creating.
I don't have another appointment scheduled.
I don't have my latest biopsy results from the Christmas eve operation.
I don't have a prescription for Zoladex that I was told in December I would be put on after my operation.
I haven't had a response to my email asking about the above.
I am continuing to take the pill that was prescribed in November. I assume I should be doing that.
I, therefore, can't even use this time to try and get pregnant naturally.
I just don't know what is going to happen next, or when.
Somewhere, in an alternate reality I am starting my injections this weekend for IVF as promised in November.
In another alternate reality I had IVF early last year following on from my appointment last January.
In yet another alternate reality I managed to have children on schedule and am currently the harassed mother of a 3 year old and 1 year old.
I suppose I should be grateful that I am not in the alternate reality where I have had a hysterectomy and have no chance on conceiving.