"I'm still not sure I will," I said and repeated was I thought was a classic line about not wanting to count my eggs until they were embryos.
He gave me a strange look, and hurriedly removed the speculum.
Everything else went smoothly, he didn't think it was necessary to check my tubes as that had been done relatively recently so he gave me the all clear to proceed to IVF. Not wanting to get my hopes dashed again I double checked. "So there is nothing more that you are waiting for that might stop me having IVF."
His response was emphatic, "No ..." and then less so, "... unless there are any more blood tests to be done."
There are more bloods but that is in hand so unless the husband or I have contracted HIV in the last 12 months (which is highly unlikely) we are good to go.
My next stop was the nurse. Who gave me my first set of instructions, they tell you things on a need to know basis.
I will continue to take the pill until the 8th of February.
On the 5th of February I have to start injecting myself with Buserelin. A treat from the selection of drugs I picked up back in November. Ironically this drug is to suppress my ovaries, the next stage is to fire them up again - but we didn't talk about that, it is very much one step at a time.
"You don't have the Buserelin with you" she stated "so it is a bit difficult to explain how you do the injections."
"Ah! But I do" I countered, and delved into my Mary Poppins bag to retrieve one of every different type of drug and needle I possess. I took no chances this morning as I packed that bag with everything including my medical notes, passport, marriage certificate, painkillers, sanitary towels and a good book. I am not a naturally organised person but, without wanting to sound
So she talked me through the injection process as I scribbled down every word. She didn't actually give me a physical demonstration, and I am a little nervous about the self-injecting thing, but I have no doubt that'll be a post in itself.
I now don't have to communicate with any doctors or nurses until my period starts at some point after I stop taking the pill on the 8th of February.
I'm starting to think that this might actually happen.