IVF that is free (well, Ok I have to pay a piffling amount on prescriptions and will top that off with inordinate sums spent on acupuncture, expensive vitamins, gym membership, organic food and general treats - because this is as good an excuse as any other). But essentially I get not one, but two gratis attempts at IVF.
This is a process people the world over scrimp and save for. That they swallow their pride to beg parents for loans or gifts for. That they sacrifice holidays for (and then someone will have the gall to tell them if they just went on holiday and relaxed they'd get pregnant anyway - I really do wonder why there aren't more fatalities amongst friends of the infertiles). That they take out loans they really can't afford for.
Even people who have access to the same NHS might not get the same benefits, or have to wait longer than me.
I am lucky. Not so lucky that I can get pregnant through sex, but lucky that I have this opportunity.
I know that.
I really do.
The thing, is I'm just not really sure I actually want IVF. I've written about this on Fertility Authority.
So tell me, I can take it, did you read that wanting to smash through the computer grab me by the lapels and tell me how grateful I should be or do you get where I am coming from?