And no, this isn't implantation bleeding unless there is an embryo doing some really major excavations going on in there. (There isn't, even though I knew, I still did a quick double-check test).
How do I feel?
Deflated, defeated, demoralised.
I'm starting to feel that this is never going to happen. I'll keep going for the moment but a massive part of me wants to give up (I don't know how I'd give up - go back on birth control just so I can eliminate any hope?).
So we go again, a month off and plan the next IUI for December.
Knowing my luck that'll lead to a dry Christmas and New Year with nothing to show for it.
This is shit.