For the first time in ages I cried today. I walked down the street and burst into tears.
Today I went for the long promised 3D scan.
I could make this funny, regale you with tales about the NHS being so crap that even though I had the first appointment of the day at 9am because the Doctor was late it was still delayed by half an hour.
And how we laughed when the doctor checked my notes and told me that I have been booked in for a hysteroscopy but hadn't even told me, (and of course he didn't have the date, so who knows when it is).
Turns out when the doctor pulled up my notes he saw I had already had one back at the start of May. I have to say this I didn’t know, I have had a few scans and to be honest from my point of view they all seem pretty much the same. Shove up the vagi-cam, wiggle it about, send me packing. Last time it was because I had a possible subseptate womb / uterus. I got the all clear, everything looked normal, things carried on.
Then after the HSG because my tubes looked ragged I was booked in for another scan. I explained that this time he was looking for something different and so he took a look.
The good news is my tubes are fine and dandy, not ragged, nothing.
But I do have a polyps. Which is apparently a small piece of extra skin growing inside my womb “a bit like a grape on a stalk.” Nice.
This needs to be removed before I can start to get treatment for the irregular periods and super ovulation.
Now why, you may ask, was this not discovered during my previous scans in May, or April, or January? Why was this discovered when I have the holy grail of super-ovulation dangled before my eyes with an appointment just three weeks away?
So it is more delays. I now have to get the polyps removed this'll probably be done at the same time as hysteroscopy, whenever that is. Apparently the waiting list isn’t ‘that long’ - but not that long to a doctor is a long, long time when you've been waiting for nearly two years.
So my super-ovulation appointment is going to have to be pushed back, last time it was 2 months from booking it until the appointment date. Now I have to wait until I get the hysteroscopy appointment, then rebook for ovulation.
I’m incredibly frustrated. I have been on hold, waiting for so long, we can’t even go about the business of trying ourselves whilst we wait because as far as I can tell I haven't ovulated since March. And according to the Doctor today - “I don’t think you are due a period anytime soon. There isn’t much follicle activity”.
So I walked out the hospital and wept.