Allow me to introduce myself

Thanks for looking in.

Its a Sunday morning and, as is often the case, I'm thinking about why I'm still not pregnant after a year and half of trying. I did a quick search for blogs to find people going through the same things as me, and the only ones I found were of people who now have a baby. You never know maybe this is the answer start a blog about how difficult it is to conceive and - bang - up the duff.

It's my first entry, I hardly know you, so I'm not about to launch into a long tirade or outpouring of emotions, I'm British after all. Equally this isn't the time to go into detail about what I've tried and what I haven't - I'm sure that will come. But if any of the following scenarios sound familiar maybe this blog will help other women in my situation, but its not all about me, please add your comments too, one lone voice isn't much comfort but hearing other peoples stories will help me and all those others out there.

How women like us differ from the rest of the population:

• you don't mind putting on a bit of weight - you can rub your rounded tummy and imagine
  
• you go to yahoo answers and look up questions asked a year ago about chlomid or another wonder drug then virtually 'stalk' the person who posed the question to see if 9 months later they are asking about knitting patterns for babies booties or the best position for breast feeding
  
• you curse the fact that so many early pregnancy symptoms are similar to pre-menstrual
• the two week wait between the green light for conception and when you can take a pregnancy test is exciting, you tell yourself you can test on Sunday but always slip in a cheeky early test on the Thursday because some of these new tests can show a result four days before you are due and you just can't wait any longer - but its always negative
• at a dinner party or party you have a booze-dar for any woman not drinking alcohol and can't fathom any other reason for their abstinence other than they must be pregnant
  
• you have a mental list of women who are younger than you, or in newer relationships and develop a seething jealousy when they have the audacity to 'jump the queue' and get pregnant before you
  
• you look at young self obsessed celebrities like Nicole Richie, Charlotte Church and Christina Aguilera who seem to find the whole pregnancy thing really easy and realise life just isn't fair, you are much more forgiving of Nicol Kidman, Jennifer Lopez and Courteney Cox Arquette who seem to have put some real work in!

These are just my signifiers I'm sure you have more - please comment and share.